I'm keeping the Hospital in Buisness

So I went to see a urologist this week because I've had this UTI for over a month. I ended up getting a catheter...YUCK and OUCH! I guess the good thing that came out of it is my doctor had a very sexy voice. Let's see, since I last posted, I got a puppy. Which most of you know. His name is Jasper and he is a puggle, pug beagle mix. He is cute, but VERY VERY active. I guess that is normal for any puppy though. Anyway, I really feel like I don't have much to report right now except those two things. Just trying to get by until December when I can have my surgery and find out more. Love ya'll.

Life's Lessons

It's funny how in life we can learn so much in the most unexpected ways or places. I've learned that life can change in the blink of an eye, it moves fast so we need to make the most of the time we have. We aren't always going to get what we want, but the things we do get make us better; whether they are good or bad. Sometimes people hurt you, and you have your choices on this. You can choose to let what they say or do truly affect you, or you can simply walk away. The 2nd part is the hardest, but once we learn this wonderful trait, life will be so much more simple.

You will get your heart broken at some point, you will also break someone's heart. Just remember to be as kind as possible and remember how you felt when it happened. Sometimes we aren't given choices, we just have to roll with the punches. Sometimes the choices we are given just plain suck, we need to choose the better of the two evils. Everyone needs a friend. Love doesn't come freely, everyone pays a price. Learn to notice the little things in life. Everyone should watch at least one sunset and sunrise in their lifetime. Carry a camera with you, you never know when you will want to remember something.

Dance like no one is watching. Travel to somewhere you've never been. Love like you have nothing to lose. Learn as much as possible about all the things you can. Open Up. Repeat as needed, but not particularly in this order.

Get Lost so you can find your way back. Go home, it doesn't matter if your are 15 or 95. Be generous, doesn't matter if you have everything or nothing at all. Discover your past, it can be the best part of your future, but don't dwell on it. Love your family, they did the best they knew how to do. Don't blame them for all the crap in your life. Let the people who are important in your life know it. Most importantly, love yourself, sometimes we are our harshest critics.

The Things That Make Me

Things you may not have known about me, but now you will!!! Scary huh! So here goes! I listen to classical music during thunder storms for a better effect. I like to stop and smell the roses. I hate my hair longer than my shoulders, I think its harder to take care of. When it comes to pain, I'm a big baby. I love to wander off and explore. Bookstores are my weakness. You can generally tell my mood by what music I'm listening to. I love being around people and having people's attention, but when it comes to giving talks and speeches I am noticeably nervous. I HATED junior high. I'm a flirt, if you haven't noticed. I think it's funny to embarrass my parents. When I'm an old lady, I want to be the old dog lady that has bright red hair and goes to Bingo every Thursday with my bag of rabbits feet and lucky ducks. I'm a daydreamer to a fault. I think the general public is full of morons and idiots. I'm afraid to get to close to people, my fear of rejection gets the best of me. I look up to my siblings. I love having my hair played with, I find it relaxing. I'm afraid of failure. I do everything I know how to succeed. I read to much into things that I shouldn't. I hate being dependent on people. My favorite scene in the world is at River View Park in Hannibal overlooking the river.

6 Months and Waiting

News from the doctors appointment in Columbia: Dr. Hunter seems to believe I need a hysterectomy and soon. I was giving pretty much two options, one have a hysterectomy now and not worry about the things to come. Two, take a hormone pill for 6 months, have another DC and biopsy surgery to see what the cells are doing. There are major risks with either choice, the hysterectomy we know the risks and the outcome of not having kids...but I won't have to worry about cancer. The risks of the medicine is that it curves my appetite and will probably make me gain weight, also I have a 30-50% chance of the pre cancer cells forming into cancer. Those are high numbers but what I keep thinking is "So I get cancer, but when? Do I have a few months..few years...a decade?" There is no time limit as to when or if the cancer will form. Is it worth it to risk it and see? Seems like I am just choosing the lesser of two evils right now, I told the doctor I wanted the meds. 6 months is 6 months, no sense in making such a drastic choice right now, right?

I'm sick of Doctors, and Yet Can't Seem To Stay Away!

Hey boys and girls! Been a few weeks since I posted. What's been happening since then you may ask well...I have been to see Dr. Bennett, who I LOVE by the way. He is the best OB GYN I have ever been too. I have been in for surgery and have gotten the following results. I had a lot of palups on my uterus and in my cervix apparently. I had a lot of pre cancer cells as well. I am being referred to a doctor in Columiba more or less for a consultation to make sure that he agrees with what Dr. Bennett is saying and treating.