1/29/09

The Urge to be Free...

So it seems to have really hit me this week and I'm not sure if it's the weather or just the fact that I am bored out of my mind. But I am bored out of my mind, here I am in Hannibal with a few friends but none that I hang out with on a regular basis like I did in Columbia. I work a full time job, go to church, come home go to bed, get a full 8 hours of sleep, attempt to eat healthy, diet, and I do almost all the things an adult should do yet I don't feel like an adult. I mean that I don't feel like an adult in the sense that I don't feel as though I've had my one great life adventure that I believe everyone should have that kind of transitions us into adulthood. I'm not sure exactly what I'm looking for or expecting here but I'm on the watch for it.

I just have the urge to do something truly fun, daring, maybe even a little scandalize. I want to see the world before I'm expected to settle down and sit behind a desk, before I'm expected to grow up and put most of my dreams behind me. Yes I do still have several hopes and wishes for the future that would require me to grow up and be an adult such as have a family, work at a good job (which I have the job part down), have a home of my own.

I just need to create my own excitement somehow, stir things up a bit, but how and by what means? Possibly a road trip...cross country? Who knows, any suggestions...I need something to look forward to, something to get me through the long drawn out workweek.