The Things That Make Me

Things you may not have known about me, but now you will!!! Scary huh! So here goes! I listen to classical music during thunder storms for a better effect. I like to stop and smell the roses. I hate my hair longer than my shoulders, I think its harder to take care of. When it comes to pain, I'm a big baby. I love to wander off and explore. Bookstores are my weakness. You can generally tell my mood by what music I'm listening to. I love being around people and having people's attention, but when it comes to giving talks and speeches I am noticeably nervous. I HATED junior high. I'm a flirt, if you haven't noticed. I think it's funny to embarrass my parents. When I'm an old lady, I want to be the old dog lady that has bright red hair and goes to Bingo every Thursday with my bag of rabbits feet and lucky ducks. I'm a daydreamer to a fault. I think the general public is full of morons and idiots. I'm afraid to get to close to people, my fear of rejection gets the best of me. I look up to my siblings. I love having my hair played with, I find it relaxing. I'm afraid of failure. I do everything I know how to succeed. I read to much into things that I shouldn't. I hate being dependent on people. My favorite scene in the world is at River View Park in Hannibal overlooking the river.

6 Months and Waiting

News from the doctors appointment in Columbia: Dr. Hunter seems to believe I need a hysterectomy and soon. I was giving pretty much two options, one have a hysterectomy now and not worry about the things to come. Two, take a hormone pill for 6 months, have another DC and biopsy surgery to see what the cells are doing. There are major risks with either choice, the hysterectomy we know the risks and the outcome of not having kids...but I won't have to worry about cancer. The risks of the medicine is that it curves my appetite and will probably make me gain weight, also I have a 30-50% chance of the pre cancer cells forming into cancer. Those are high numbers but what I keep thinking is "So I get cancer, but when? Do I have a few months..few years...a decade?" There is no time limit as to when or if the cancer will form. Is it worth it to risk it and see? Seems like I am just choosing the lesser of two evils right now, I told the doctor I wanted the meds. 6 months is 6 months, no sense in making such a drastic choice right now, right?

I'm sick of Doctors, and Yet Can't Seem To Stay Away!

Hey boys and girls! Been a few weeks since I posted. What's been happening since then you may ask well...I have been to see Dr. Bennett, who I LOVE by the way. He is the best OB GYN I have ever been too. I have been in for surgery and have gotten the following results. I had a lot of palups on my uterus and in my cervix apparently. I had a lot of pre cancer cells as well. I am being referred to a doctor in Columiba more or less for a consultation to make sure that he agrees with what Dr. Bennett is saying and treating.

Anybody ELSE engaged?

So this week alone I have gotten 3 wedding invites as well as helping another good friend of mine with her wedding plans. It truly feels like everyone else in the world has someone and I'm stuck here in singleton. I'm not really saying I need someone to make me happy, I think it's more that I am feeling a little left behind and more like a third wheel with anyone I hang out with. I've always been little miss social...so I'm not really sure what to do now. I do have a date coming up, but unfortunately neither of us could get together until the end of May. I guess that is something to look forward to.

Memphis

I want these!!!